NEW RULE: NEVER TRUST HOW YOU FEEL ABOUT YOUR LIFE AFTER 9PM back?
jan 12, 2025 - 8:00pm
feeling a little lost. i feel less grounded lately. very cliche but i feel like im just floating through the days...
i think i need minimalism. i need to be a monk. i need to get rid of all unnecessary belongings and baggage. to restart... focus my values...
im becoming more and more aware of my perfectionist
tendencies. its hard to move past them. i guess i feel
a loss of control when something doesnt start in the
most optimal way? what im worried about now is my
schooling - i feel like ive made a mistake in my
earlier years by not taking some class or pushing myself
more or joining some club. and im scared this will
affect my future choices... but i have to tell myself its
ok!! i have to do the best i can now! things will work out!
jan 8, 2025 - 12:06am
i have Really got to start going to bed earlier.
i am alive! back from sweden. it was amazing. i love snow. i am so incredibly tired that i doubt i can write anything of true substance. resolutions are flimsy this year - more guiding statements than anything concrete. december was good to me.
i feel a little concerned about the state of my life right now. i think im jetlagged from my flight still. my room is a complete mess. i have clothes everywhere. i feel a sense of wild abandonment...? when i was younger, i remember a teacher telling me to not start every sentence in my assignment with "i". and now i notice i have done it again.
reminders:
- upload loona 2 mp3 player when home
- finish luke shrine
- declutter. you can move on. you do not have to hold onto everything with a death grip.
- stay consistent w hobonichi
- remember that you want to live fully
- watch persona stageplay
jan 12, 2025 - 8:00pm
feeling a little lost. i feel less grounded lately. very cliche but i feel like im just floating through the days...
i think i need minimalism. i need to be a monk. i need to get rid of all unnecessary belongings and baggage. to restart... focus my values...
im becoming more and more aware of my perfectionist
tendencies. its hard to move past them. i guess i feel
a loss of control when something doesnt start in the
most optimal way? what im worried about now is my
schooling - i feel like ive made a mistake in my
earlier years by not taking some class or pushing myself
more or joining some club. and im scared this will
affect my future choices... but i have to tell myself its
ok!! i have to do the best i can now! things will work out!
jan 8, 2025 - 12:06am
i have Really got to start going to bed earlier.
i am alive! back from sweden. it was amazing. i love snow. i am so incredibly tired that i doubt i can write anything of true substance. resolutions are flimsy this year - more guiding statements than anything concrete. december was good to me.
i feel a little concerned about the state of my life right now. i think im jetlagged from my flight still. my room is a complete mess. i have clothes everywhere. i feel a sense of wild abandonment...? when i was younger, i remember a teacher telling me to not start every sentence in my assignment with "i". and now i notice i have done it again.
reminders:
- upload loona 2 mp3 player when home
- finish luke shrine
- declutter. you can move on. you do not have to hold onto everything with a death grip.
- stay consistent w hobonichi
- remember that you want to live fully
- watch persona stageplay